Monday, November 17, 2014
SNOOZE
I find myself feeling lazy and sleepy all the time. With 2 tests this week, 2 assignments due in a couple of days, and finals coming up in less then a month, I'm not even anxious or nervous or whatever. Maybe it's the lack of sleep. Maybe it's the lack of new clothes. Ignore the last one.
I just hope I snap out of this shitty phase and get my shit together asap
MM
Sunday, November 16, 2014
POPPY SEEDS
The worst feeling for me, is uncertainty. Not knowing whether or not a $100 fitted jacket I found online would fit me, or that annoying feeling of being unsure of the dessert I ordered, because never have I ever been used to the idea of ordering another one.
Yep it sucks that you're not allowed by nature to ever be sure of what you're going to be up against. But that's what makes things pretty amazing too. If you knew how things would turn out, say if they didn't turn out the way you wanted it too, you never would've experienced the good stuff that came along with it. The beautiful and unforgettable stuff that makes it all worth while.
So you just gotta do it.
If you want that lemon cake with poppy seeds, you get that lemon cake with poppy seeds. And if you want that jacket, you get that damned jacket. Because what if it fits? If it doesn't well that sucks but you could sell it off (for the pure enjoyment of giving) and some cool chick w the same taste could share the luv of an awesome jacket for less and you both win. Or if you wanna ask that cutie in class who always comes in late for class but is always early for tutorials. GO AND DO IT.
Because honestly I miss being in love. I miss worrying about what another thinks of how I dressed, how my hair looked, and I miss having a reason to feel anxious and excited and scared and nervous and happy all at the same time. Bluegh sorry I shall cringe 4u. But that's just it though, I want it. I want the cheesiness of it all, and I can't help but hate myself for it. I hate feeling like I need someone to be happy. Because I don't. I am more than capable of taking care of myself. But I can't help but feel like I'm falling behind. Like I'm not good enough, not pretty enough, not bold or smart or cool enough to deserve a majestic, epic, love story.
I find myself dwelling in the past and it sucks. No one's turning back for me or for anyone.
To all my people out there who feel like you're a lost cause, suck it up. Scream into a pillow, fix your shirt, fix your hair, have a glass of orange juice to freshen up your dying soul and move on. We need to find the ultimate majestic most absolute best version of ourselves and believe that this uncertainty will finally lead us to somewhere beautiful. Or at least somewhere with a nice piece of lemon cake with poppy seeds. We can pull through. We'll just have to.
MM
Yep it sucks that you're not allowed by nature to ever be sure of what you're going to be up against. But that's what makes things pretty amazing too. If you knew how things would turn out, say if they didn't turn out the way you wanted it too, you never would've experienced the good stuff that came along with it. The beautiful and unforgettable stuff that makes it all worth while.
So you just gotta do it.
If you want that lemon cake with poppy seeds, you get that lemon cake with poppy seeds. And if you want that jacket, you get that damned jacket. Because what if it fits? If it doesn't well that sucks but you could sell it off (for the pure enjoyment of giving) and some cool chick w the same taste could share the luv of an awesome jacket for less and you both win. Or if you wanna ask that cutie in class who always comes in late for class but is always early for tutorials. GO AND DO IT.
Because honestly I miss being in love. I miss worrying about what another thinks of how I dressed, how my hair looked, and I miss having a reason to feel anxious and excited and scared and nervous and happy all at the same time. Bluegh sorry I shall cringe 4u. But that's just it though, I want it. I want the cheesiness of it all, and I can't help but hate myself for it. I hate feeling like I need someone to be happy. Because I don't. I am more than capable of taking care of myself. But I can't help but feel like I'm falling behind. Like I'm not good enough, not pretty enough, not bold or smart or cool enough to deserve a majestic, epic, love story.
I find myself dwelling in the past and it sucks. No one's turning back for me or for anyone.
To all my people out there who feel like you're a lost cause, suck it up. Scream into a pillow, fix your shirt, fix your hair, have a glass of orange juice to freshen up your dying soul and move on. We need to find the ultimate majestic most absolute best version of ourselves and believe that this uncertainty will finally lead us to somewhere beautiful. Or at least somewhere with a nice piece of lemon cake with poppy seeds. We can pull through. We'll just have to.
MM
Tuesday, September 30, 2014
YOUTH
"And if you're still bleeding, you're the lucky ones.
'Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone."
Monday, August 25, 2014
MORNING BLUES
Mornings are so numb to me. In my mind I'm imagining the idea of a busy busy day and when I actually get out of bed, I don't really feel the need to do anything. It's like I eventually get lazy to participate in ... well life. People like Cameron Diaz in the Charlie's Angels (y'know, one of the first scenes where she wakes up dancing in her undies) make it seem so easy to have a happy early day. Well my mornings are obviously not choreographed by Fred Astaire. I wake up in my retainers and kaftan and the biggest masam face, wondering how my cat entered my room.
So this morning I've decided to kick it slow (surprise, surprise)with some Nina Simone, a cup of hot tea and my laptop to sum up my trip to Terengganu in pictures.
This post was written this morning but I have taken my time with breakfast and lunch, hence the almost evening posting. (Y)
Till next time xxx
So this morning I've decided to kick it slow (surprise, surprise)with some Nina Simone, a cup of hot tea and my laptop to sum up my trip to Terengganu in pictures.
This post was written this morning but I have taken my time with breakfast and lunch, hence the almost evening posting. (Y)
2 GIRLS 1 BIRTHDAY
Been lazy with life basically and Malaysia has been heavenly. Time seemed to be moving rather slowly for the first few days because all I did was wake up, get dressed, settle laundry, breakfast and out to eat some more.
My summer was amazing because for the first time in 9 months I felt the freedom of not having to think of what to cook, which topics needed to be covered before bloody weekly evaluations, or what the weather's like today so I don't leave my hooded jacket when it's going to rain like mad.
Things seem.. easier at home. And the thought of leaving home for Dubs next week is just so unbelievably surreal. Where did my 3 months worth of summer vacay go?????
Anyways, last week was my supposed busy week. Decided to go to Terengganu, the land of good food, +ve vibes and good kaftans (heheheh to kaftans). Then my two best girls in the world turned 21! Oh and the crazy open house+wedding phase everybody had to go through this weekend. Peliknya semua orang nak buat event this weekend jugak?
Traffic was horrible and the whole time I was just imagining my bed at home with a tub of green tea ice-cream on it. Just waiting for me.
So I'm just gonna sum up the one day where my two girls shared a birthday: 23rd August 2014 xx
Jaja's birthday surprise
The cake is banana caramel cake ok. droolzzzzzzz
Zati's birthday
Lighting was shitty so I never really took much photos. Quite disappointed in my lazy ass but what to do hehs
My summer was amazing because for the first time in 9 months I felt the freedom of not having to think of what to cook, which topics needed to be covered before bloody weekly evaluations, or what the weather's like today so I don't leave my hooded jacket when it's going to rain like mad.
Things seem.. easier at home. And the thought of leaving home for Dubs next week is just so unbelievably surreal. Where did my 3 months worth of summer vacay go?????
Anyways, last week was my supposed busy week. Decided to go to Terengganu, the land of good food, +ve vibes and good kaftans (heheheh to kaftans). Then my two best girls in the world turned 21! Oh and the crazy open house+wedding phase everybody had to go through this weekend. Peliknya semua orang nak buat event this weekend jugak?
Traffic was horrible and the whole time I was just imagining my bed at home with a tub of green tea ice-cream on it. Just waiting for me.
So I'm just gonna sum up the one day where my two girls shared a birthday: 23rd August 2014 xx
Jaja's birthday surprise
The cake is banana caramel cake ok. droolzzzzzzz
Zati's birthday
Lighting was shitty so I never really took much photos. Quite disappointed in my lazy ass but what to do hehs
Wednesday, June 4, 2014
HOME IS WHERE THE HEART IS?
Here I am, taking a break from one of my many impulsive, spur of the moment decisions. Two days ago, I decided to paint the cabinets in the kitchen at home. The idea sounded good in my head, till I realised that painting the entire kitchen cabinet would mean that I'd have to sit in the kitchen for days. And I am nowhere near being done. zzz
So here I am (taking a 5-30 minutes break), enjoying my Chips More and a cup of over sweetened hot Milo, and I'm gonna blab about my new home back in Dublin!
I never got to blog about it so here we go. We settled into the loveliest lemon yellow coloured house, a couple kilometres away from campus. It is nothing less than perfect and it took a lot of work. Without going into the uninteresting tale of how I finally got the place, let's just go into the fun-ish stuff. We set a price on each room so it'd be fair, so I chose the (furniture-less) living room! Its on the ground floor and next to the kitchen plus I'll have my very own patio!
Not that I'm gonna step outside admiring the 'greenery' every second of the day but there's something about a huge sliding door in the room, (meaning more natural lighting heh heh) that makes the room a major plus for me. Since the landlord decided to pay for the furniture in the room, I decided to get a little creative. But we had a budget, so...cheap but creative....creative-ish.
Naturally, we went to IKEA to get all the stuff and being cheap asians, we decided to assemble the furniture ourselves, instead of well, paying 35 euros for people to do it.
All in all, Sarah, and I assembled a bed, chest for clothes, and a study table. *Cue the 'I don't need a man' & 'Single ladies' related quotes* -but umm some man power would've saved us some time tho but I'm stickin to my point. hashtag denial
So here's when it's all finally done!
The kitchen, to me, is the best part of the house (well its the best part of any house but you get what I mean). Absolutely inlove with the white cabinets and wooden table tops. Excuse the mess, this picture here was taken on our first night in the house. My sweet pumpkin mouse of a housemate, Tia baked us a butter cake and some chocolate chip cookies as part of our mini 'housewarming'.
Well that's all for now! Can't believe I'm missing the house already. Something's clearly very wrong here. Night xx
So here I am (taking a 5-30 minutes break), enjoying my Chips More and a cup of over sweetened hot Milo, and I'm gonna blab about my new home back in Dublin!
I never got to blog about it so here we go. We settled into the loveliest lemon yellow coloured house, a couple kilometres away from campus. It is nothing less than perfect and it took a lot of work. Without going into the uninteresting tale of how I finally got the place, let's just go into the fun-ish stuff. We set a price on each room so it'd be fair, so I chose the (furniture-less) living room! Its on the ground floor and next to the kitchen plus I'll have my very own patio!
Not that I'm gonna step outside admiring the 'greenery' every second of the day but there's something about a huge sliding door in the room, (meaning more natural lighting heh heh) that makes the room a major plus for me. Since the landlord decided to pay for the furniture in the room, I decided to get a little creative. But we had a budget, so...cheap but creative....creative-ish.
Naturally, we went to IKEA to get all the stuff and being cheap asians, we decided to assemble the furniture ourselves, instead of well, paying 35 euros for people to do it.
Thursday, May 29, 2014
HAPPY DAYS
Today, we went to the Antipodean Café on Jalan Telawi, Bangsar. I'm pretty sure this one has been around for quite some time, but we just wanted to try out something new to us, at least.
Dessert afterwards was also unbelievably deadly, especially the deep dark chocolate and gula melaka ice cream from the Artisan Café. I could feel the calories making its way happily to my thighs, but what the heck.
Zati and I, happy faces happy days (Y)
Saturday, March 15, 2014
QUEEN OF TARTS
Beautiful day today! Its so sunny and perfect and a lot less windy! (major plus especially when you're living in Ireland). But of course, being the lazy bum that I always am, I decided to stay in with my toast and marmite, and my new favourite flamingo socks, and just..blog.
So yesterday was massive cheat day. Well not exactly for 'jaga badan' diet, but rather for 'jaga muka'. Ever since my transition to Dublin, I've been having the absolute worst breakouts and it has really taken its toll on me. I mean, I've never had bad breakouts in my life, not even during my teenage years. Of course there were the usual 'that time of the month' kind of breakouts then, but now its just.. depressing. So Nadia and I came up with a set of rules we'll have to abide to for a month in hopes of seeing at least some form of improvement. They're basically the Dos and Don'ts for acne prone skin, from basics such as 8 glasses of water per day right up to changing pillow cases every week. Whoever breaks any of the rules 3 times, will owe the other a lipstick. Well, guys, its only been a couple of weeks and.. well.. we both owe each other a lipstick.
Back to my cheat day, one of the rules was to not take any fried foods and chocolates (of any form. sad I know). I went out for lunch with Fasiha yesterday and we had this popiah-like dish but with crab meat instead of 'taugeh'. So she calls it the Irish Popiah. It was sooooooo good!
Then we watched Need for Speed (3D)! Not a bad movie, honestly. But I wouldn't choose it over the Fast and Furious franchise. obviously
The both of us were still feeling so hungry, so we went to the famous Queen of Tarts café on Dame Street to have some cakes! And it was heavenly..
They even had chocolate scones!! I obviously wasn't supposed to have any, but for future reference, who knows, when it may be a matter of life and death. haha! Till then, xx
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