Have you ever felt like you're in the middle of the ocean, torn between fighting for your life and just giving up? to let everything be and just float on the surface of the water? Away from paranoia, high expectations and judgmental imbeciles.
I wish life had a pause button so we could just stop time. To think. Or maybe to take a break.
Its been only two weeks since ive been home, and things couldn't have been more different. Mom and dad decided to make tiny improvements to the house and now everything from the walls to the floors have been removed to make way for the renovation. Its amazing how much things could change in such a short period of time. Danny's going to Egypt this tomorrow. Felt like it was just yesterday, we were playing football in my garden which felt like a field before and yet so tiny now. I still can't believe how much time has passed. How those friends you used to talk to every night, are now strangers and those you despise turn out to be one of your closest friends.
College is treating me fairly, A Levels is not at easy as it sounds. To be completely honest with myself, im struggling. Keeping up is never easy.
Semester exam's next week, i just hope i can prove to my parents and myself that im actually worth something. Oh well, i have to start looking at books now. Maybe a quick shop at rasta bazaar? Dear God, please show me the light.